High School graduation is now over and that means I get to look forward to the next things coming up in my life. As excited as I am to fully focus on getting ready for YWAM there is a lot of scary in the midst of that. Everyone is going off and doing their own things and I think everyone has some pressure to make the right choices and not mess up the decisions were making in this time. As I get excited to go and I know that this is the direction God is taking my life there is some unknown in a lot of aspects of my life. I feel like I can't fully answer the question of what I am doing after DTS because there is so many ways God can move in that time, and I just feel like I'm going to learn things about myself and the desires that God puts on my heart, and he will reveal that to me and make it clear the next steps I need to take in my life. With that being said I am trying to keep Christ at the root of this and not let myself get overwhelmed with the unknown because I know that Gods got me and he's not going to lead me astray and I fully believe that he will reveal his intentions for my life as I continue to try my best to just pursue a relationship with him more and more. One of the hardest things I am facing at this time in my life and the few coming months is everyone going in different directions. There's a few short months before I have to say goodbye to best friends and family for a time. It can be scary and intimidating thinking about so much distance coming in between relationships. Graduating high school and getting ready to move into adulthood is scary there is no doubt in that. It has brought up so many emotions for me and the people in my life and that has been something no one can prepare you for. In the midst of all the change in life that I've faced over the past weeks, months and even years there is one thing that has always been consistent and that is Christ. No matter how much I try to run or get involved in the worldly struggles of being a human there is always a pull on my heart of Christ holding me down and pulling me back into the relief of knowing I am rooted in him. No matter what has come up in my life the Lord has provided so much peace and relief in times when I was at my lowest and even when I try to push him away, I can't deny what he has done for me and for that I know that no matter how far I go there will be that tug in my heart and knowing the joy that God gives and wants you so badly to experience. Overall, with all the change that comes from growing up my goal is to hold onto the constant in my life that is Christ and pursue what he is trying to do in my life the best I am able. I am excited to see what God decides to do in my life no matter what he ends up doing and although there are struggles that come with that there is an overwhelming relief, I feel knowing God is a constant.
